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i'm asking you nicely and i'm asking you fairly to just calm down. calm down and stop crying. please. for the sake of us both. i'm telling you the truth. you've got to listen to me. for once and once only i'm telling you the truth. and i don't care if you want to know or not because you've GOT to know. you've GOT to know. so i'm telling you. and you're crying even more. i wish i could make you stop. i wish i could help you. but i carry on telling you. i can't help upsetting you. but if i don't tell you now then you'll never find out and you'll never know and you'll never last. you have to stop crying. it's only making things far worse. far far worse. it's getting dark now. and it's getting cold. i should offer you my coat but you'd only refuse it. and suddenly it's dawning on you. you're finally understanding. i'm hoping this will be the turning point. but at first it only seems to be worse. much much worse. and now you're crying into my shoulder. i'm putting my arm around you, and i don't know why, because i know you'll just snap and tell me to get off. but this time it's different. for once you're letting me touch you. for once there's an understanding. i'm handing you my coat as you begin to wipe the tears from your eyes. and it all comes flooding back. the day we first met. it's sunny. it's warm. i'm actually in the background, hardly memorable. you're still there. i can't remember what you were wearing and i'm not aware of even where we were. only the sensation of being in your presence for the first time remains. i'm totally aware. we've known each other a year. we're closer. but something is keeping me away from you. or keeping you away from me. a force that neither of us are physically aware of. it's only seen in hindsight. the temperature is so low now i'm almost beginning to shiver. only your hold of me keeps me warm and secure. only my hold of you keeps you warm and secure. maybe we need each other after all. maybe we need each other. maybe. the houses are all full of people. none of them know. they've probably never experience it. probably. but i'm not making assumptions. i'm not guessing. the time for guessing was yesterday. i'm happy. i'm warm in the cold. i can't see the future and i'm sick of the past. and even though the present's already gone, it's the only place for me. it's the only place because you are here with me. to keep me safe. if only you knew i was feeling this way, you would be different. i know you are feeling exactly the same about me. i'm sure we need each other. i'm sure. drops of rain are falling onto my head. my hair is getting wet and so is yours. i am now painfully cold. you offer the coat back but i decline with a shake of my head. this is not the time for me. this is the time for you. you can finally be yourself. you can finally let the feelings go. let them flow. and for once you're not afraid. we look at each other at this revelation. we no longer need to be afraid. and even through the cold, neither of us are shivering. because we're safe. we do need each other. we need each other.
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